“I Have So Many Questions” (An Ode to 2018)

2018 was a big year. I started this business, fumbled my way through, worked really hard and figured things out as I went. When I’ve been asked to reflect on it, I find myself responding initially with a big, thoughtful sigh. Relief. Anxiety. Gratitude. So many feelings. Throughout it all, I was constantly learning, constantly asking questions.

What’s the process for registering a business in Kenya? Am I qualified to [insert “job I’m totally qualified for” here]? What should I charge clients? Is it normal to feel this way? How am I impacting my community (if at all)? Where am I going? (Both literally and figuratively…) How am I impacting the environment? What does it mean to run a business well? Can I afford to [insert anything outside of basic life-sustaining necessities here]? How can we stop using so much plastic? What’s the next step? Wait… what am I doing?

Some of these questions (more than I would like to admit) have come from a place of worry and anxiety, based in my fear of failure. Those I could do without. However, some of my questions were rooted in curiosity and learning. They’re questions that will help me become better at my job — helping other businesses grow so that they can contribute positively to society. They’re questions that will help me be thoughtful and purposeful about what I’m doing and why I’m doing it.

And these are the types of questions that will help guide my 2019 (and will be the topic of many of my future blog posts). What is our responsibility, whether from a personal or business standpoint, when it comes to how we impact the environment? How do we impact our communities positively? What does it really mean to run a business well — not based on profitability alone, but looking at things holistically? How can we be more thoughtful about the choices we make, rather than just reacting to circumstances? I want to explore how I can do these things for my own business and how I can help other businesses do the same.

So, here’s to another year of questioning and exploring — hopefully with a little less anxious and an extra dose of curious. Happy New Year!